Hello, human.
I hope you find this writing just in time of your needs.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UZpYuNMxFYA
Then, the universe brought me into one hell of coincidence. There was my friend laying comma in hospital. Got a stroke, some said. Finally, after having his ups and downs within a week, he died. I hope he died peacefully. I am sure he did.
So, the death made me thinking, contemplating. Sure, death happens anytime, anywhere. It is coming to anyone, without mercy. It is a very usual event. But, it felt so goddamn different when it happened to your relatives. I came to his grave, hours right after he was buried.
The feeling was something like this:
He's only 6 feet below the surface. You can still sense his presence, his aura, somebody might say. It feels like you just stepped on his body--his leg, or arm. It doesn't feel right, but it is happening. So close, yet so far.
And there goes my friend, one of the most kind and polite person I have ever know. The flashback began. I wasn't his close friend though, but we had have a quartet touring and it was enough for me to remember a person perfectly as he/she was.
Slowly, the feeling faded as I walked out the cemetery. I thought it was over until I looked back, and saw the view of a simple pathway in the middle of tombstones.
This is the real farewell.
I made myself standing still for a second. I captured that view so that I could repeat the farewell. A pathway, asphalt one, decorated by bushes and trees, laying there in the middle of vast cemetery.
Farewell again, my kind Arief Nur Ihsan!
Then, I remember the song I have told you above. Maybe it feels right to be "sang" back there.
Quoting from John Frusciante's:
I'm going away, forever,I'm going away, forever,Never coming back this way,Never coming back to this place.What I need is a heaven,What I really need is a heaven,A place to go where I can really be,A place to go where I can really beWhere I can really be.Dreaming my life away, counts for nothing,Dreaming my life away, counts for nothing,But nothing ever is the end,No, nothing ever is the end.It's sure been a full life for me, babyIt's sure been a full life for me, yeahhIt's sure been a full life for me, baby, its sure been a full life for me
That's it, Dying.